It's been over three years and it feels very much like yesterday. They told mum and me....don't worry, time would heal the pain but did it? Not at all! the pain is ever-fresh and I just can't come to terms with the fact that my darling big and only brother is gone. You were more than just a brother to me, you were a friend, confidant, father, adviser, encourager etc. I still remember how hard I prayed to God to give me a man like you because the virtues I saw in you were the exact ones I wanted in a husband. I miss our everyday calls, I miss all the "don't tell mummy so she doesn't panic" gists, I miss how you called me "Topiroro", I miss your voice and it hurts so much that you are no longer here. We are consoled by the gift of the wonderful kids you left us, we see you in them and we always talk about how wonderful daddy was. Truly you are irreplaceable my darling brother. I wish we had more moments together, I wish we had lots of fun family vacations like we had planned, I wish my kids spent more time with their affectionate "big daddy", I wish I didn't have to be consoling mummy every single day because her "Shina Shina" is no longer with her, i wish I didn't have to be explaining to your kids that it wasn't your fault for leaving them early...they wished you stayed longer to add more colour to their lives and brighten up the house like you always did, I wish I didn't have to be consoling your wife and trying to be a mini husband to her(smile), I wish you stayed longer to touch more lives, so many lives have lost meaning since you left. I love you dearly, miss you deeply and will always remember the fun moments we had growing up. Rest on my irreplaceable father, brother, friend ,adviser, cheerleader and world's best human that ever existed.